i know the answer
though it is hard to accept || time for an ending
A few continuous haiku sets, ranging in length from 2 to 12. The third set, my trust in you broke, has haiku that I’ve already published in though the flame blew out. Since that post was in alphabetical order, they were disconnected from each other, so here you can read them sequentially as written.
Thank you for taking a couple minutes to read this. I hope you’re finding joy, rest, or whatever you’re searching for this weekend.
i cleared my contacts
i cleared my contacts
clicked “delete” on the ones who’ve
left me in the lurch
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it did not leave me
feeling lighter in the way
that i thought it would
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every deletion
was like a small funeral
to mourn what once was
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a friendship fractured
a relationship dissolved
a name forgotten
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checked text history
my chest tightened as i found
double, triple texts
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i pitied myself
all the excuses i’ve made
for their nonresponse
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“oh, they’re just busy”
“oh, they must have forgotten”
“an honest mistake”
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i guess saying that
helped me sleep better at night
than accepting truth
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in reality
it’s not that they don’t have time
but they don’t make time
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i do not matter
to them as much as i’d hoped
can i accept that?
-
can i sit with this
deprioritization
and not excuse it?
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besides, they won’t know
they’re deleted, since they won’t
text me anyway
five hour delay
five hour delay
it’s one hundred eleven
no wonder we’re stuck
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no use fretting here
i can’t control the weather
roll with the changes
my trust in you broke
my trust in you broke
when i saw all of your words
validating rape
-
though you spent four months
trying to say you’re sorry
it was far too late
she noticed my speech
she noticed my speech
sped up when i sensed that you
tensed up in your chair
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it was my way of
protecting you. of saying
“let me blow through this”
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and now i wonder
all the other ways that i’ve
made myself smaller
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all in the name of
protecting you from feelings
that only i see
it’s funny you lied
it’s funny you lied
to make yourself look better
you blamed it on me
-
were you embarrassed
to just admit that you made
a fool of yourself?
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congratulations
you look even more foolish
now that you’ve been caught
